** Cynthia GUEU **

The original idea was to just pick him up and put him in my bed but after dinner I changed my mind. I saw in his eyes that he wanted me so I decided to make myself wanted even more. I don't just want to be another girl in bed. No I want to mark him like that even after he will still want me. I've had time to detail it well and I have to admit it's beautiful, clean, stylish, and has an unmistakable sex appeal which is just my style. I wouldn't mind spending several nights with him. I feel that between us it will be boiling hot especially after the sample he showed me the night before yesterday. He has magic fingers. Ouch it still fits me in there. I took off without my feet leaving the ground and was close to a big boom when he pulled his finger out, causing my frustration. But he's going to pay me for it. He will eventually crack. I really don't know why it affects me so much. Of the men I wanted to sleep with I had plenty and I wasn't that excited but with him it's different. I just hope this is not the beginning of romantic feelings or I will kill myself directly.

As I prepare to pay Maya a surprise visit in her ward, a photo falls from my closet. I pick it up and it hurts when I see my mom. It's crazy how I miss her. When I think she banned me from her life because of a man's meanness it hurts.

Indeed I was engaged. Three years ago I was introducing my boyfriend to my mom and she was so happy that he came to introduce himself to her as my future husband that she didn't listen to her sixth sense telling her that this guy is was not good. After the côcôcô as we say here in Ivory Coast, Mohamed talked about giving the dowry which enchanted my mother even more. My uncles disagreed because they were not from the same locality as we were let alone from the same village. Because he was a Muslim and a whole bunch of other things but my mom didn't care and she managed to convince a few to accept the dowry. Then one day during the preparations, he came home all worried, saying that his mother urgently needed an operation or she would die. He used medical terms that were complicated to understand but in front of his dismay, mom and I broke down and gave him everything we had as money, mom took all her savings to give him. We were confident he would pay it back since he was an Army Colonel. He even took us to see her in the hospital and her condition was dire. His foot was rotting. The day of the dowry finally arrived but Mohamed was absent. We called him but none of his numbers were getting through and there we started to fear the worst. This worst was confirmed when we returned to the hospital. Her supposed mother confessed to us that he had promised to take care of her if she was posing as her mother, only since she hasn't heard from her. We came to a conclusion: he had ripped us off.

Mom insulted me day and night, claiming that I was Mohamed's accomplice and that I had brought the devil into our house. But things went downhill when her only brother was in an accident. She had nothing left to pay her expenses and later he died. I took all the broken pieces again. By the way with or without money he was already doomed given the gravity of the accident but as it happened in the same week as Mohamed's disappearance, everything stayed on my head. Mom kicked me out of her house then, denying me. Maya who lived with us tried to work things out but niet, mom was sticking to her decision mainly because she had become the laughing stock of her village and her family. I even had a miscarriage because of all these emotional shocks.

This is how I decided to close my heart to men and just see them as hobbies. Ryan will therefore be no exception. We will sleep together, as many times as possible and then each will resume his journey. I put the picture away, get my purse and leave the apartment. Being in the taxi I make sure everything is perfect on me. I work in a nightclub, Jamal's JAS Club, and my service changes from time to time. Sometimes I work during the day and sometimes at night. The big boss Jamal is no longer there but he has entrusted the company to Florien. I wasn't really interested in school so I don't have much of a diploma that would allow me to get a good job in a company. But I'm not complaining because I am well paid where I am. I go straight up to Maya's office and barely knock twice before she asks me to enter.

Me (enthusiastic): Hello Maya !!!

Maya: Cynthia? What are you doing here ?

Me: I came to get you to go to lunch.

Maya: Um, are you sure you're here for me? Come on, spit it out.

Me: Of course yes, for who else?

Maya: Hmm. Okay, wait till I get this file over to Ryan and let's go.

Me: Let me take care of it.

Maya: That's what I thought.

I almost rip the file out of her hands and walk out to Ryan's office. It's right next to Maya's. I saw him in passing. When I get to her desk, I arrange my bustier so that my breasts are really almost completely visible. I knocked in and found him sitting behind his desk looking better than ever. He is so focused on a file that he doesn't care who has walked into his office. So I step forward, put the document down and lean on the desk so that when he looks up he comes face to face with my pointy breasts.