Olivia: No. I'm angry against you.

Cynthia bursts out laughing and goes to hug Olivia to cheer her up. She then tells us that she's just come to get some things because she's going to be spending the night with Ryan who is waiting for her downstairs. It does not take long to leave, stealing a piece of chicken from us in the process. Silence reigns in the room. Olivia looks at me but I completely ignore her as I clear the table.

Olivia: Why did you encourage him if it was to make that face?

Me: I don't know what you're talking about.

I take the plates and go to the kitchen where I start washing them.

Olivia: Why did you encourage Maya?

Me: Because he wanted to be with her.

Olivia: But you love him.

Me: Yes and he's the one he loves. You heard Cynthia, he told her he was in love with her.

Olivia: You should have said from the start that you were in love with Ryan.

Me: I remind you that the first day Ryan came to work at the club, that same day Cynthia hooked him up. Also, I remind you that I have kept telling you about the one and the greatest love I have known in my whole life although there was never anything between him and me. I've chanted her name in your ears I don't know how many times so it's not my fault Cynthia doesn't remember it.

Olivia: Yeah and you know what she is like. She even forgets our birthdays every time. One of us always needs to remind her. There are only her things that she never forgets, especially when it comes to men. So you should have reminded her about Ryan in order to slow her down. She's already taken Denis from you.

Maya: I wasn't dating him.

Olivia: But basically, it was you he wanted and you also wanted to try with him but she begged you to leave it to her because he was too '' horny '' according to her and you Madam I am the Kindest on Earth you gave in to please her. It was also the case with Bob. This time you should have told him the truth about your feelings for Ryan.

Me (facing him): I didn't have the courage. Cynthia saw him, she flashed on him and I didn't have the strength to tell her that I've been in love with Ryan since I was a teenager. Afterwards, I thought to myself that once they sleep together, she wouldn't want to hang out with him like she did with the others, but things have happened and now they are dating. So in summary I lost him for good because even if they break up I can't stand with him. It's okay to go out with your best friend's ex. Look at me Oli, I'm the complete opposite of Cynthia. All I can do is work. I've always been a nerd. Ryan has always dated girls like Cynthia, so there's no way he's interested in a stuck girl like me. Cynthia is a bomb and she's sure of herself, but I, no, I'm not sure. I have none of that. I don't have anything interesting that would seduce a man like Ryan. He loves Cynthia, Cynthia loves him, they're dating, that's all. Now excuse me I have a report to complete for work tomorrow.

Olivia: That's what I was saying. Always trying hard on the work. Tchrrrr.

I'm going to lock myself in my room to ruminate on my grief on my own, and it's since high school that I've been chaining grief after grief with Ryan. Since high school I bear to see him fall in love with other girls. This time I don't know if I will be able to take it. I don't know if I will be able to cope seeing that I fall in love with my best friend who I live with.

*** Olivia ***

Cynthia: Do you want me to come with you to help you shut down your sisters and their mother witch?

Me: No thank you, I'm fine. I'm getting there for now, but if I'm stuck, I'll call for help, honey.

Cynthia: Are you sure you don't want me to come show them my latest footwork? We Guéré eat the man oh so if they've made friends I'll eat them a side. In a way, you see no coco?

Me (laughing): Stay here first and if it gets hot there, I'll beep and you show up strong.

Cynthia: It works. I give your father a big kiss.

Maya: Me too.

Me: Understood. Well I’m going to more. I love you.

They: Us too.

I have to go with my family today to see my father. I go see him once or twice a week when my schedule allows. I am Olivia TOUALI from a family of 4 daughters of which I am the second. Alex is the oldest, me the second, Axelle the third and Anaïs the last. I don't have the same mother as them. My mother died when I was 15 and that's where my troubles began. I don't get along with my mother-in-law and her daughters. Only my father is precious to me in this family. My father was married to my mother who took a long time to give birth. After 5 years of childless marriage, my mother's in-laws imposed a wife on my father. Of course this one didn't want to but my mother being such a sweet woman, encouraged my father to accept because he didn't want him to alienate him for her. He gave in to his wife's wish but did not touch his new wife. It took my mother again to push him. This is how Alexandra my big sister was born. As soon as Alex was born, my mother also got pregnant, which made my father crazy with happiness.